You can't find the truth in your lies.
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Why must the world just be so cruel? Keeping your friends is already a problem today. Why can't everyone be more open minded in handling problems instead of just putting the blame on themselves or others? Why can't we just sit down, say our mistakes, and forget problems even existed? Why must we hold grudges and cause ourselves more pain then we're already in? Why do we have to sleep late every night because we were all curled up in our blankets but the tears just wouldn't stop falling? Why can't we just accept the fact that we're all different and we don't see things the same way?
Why can't we push all problems aside and just live?
I don't get why you complain so much about who he hangs out with. You keep saying you don't like those girls so why waste your time and breath complaining about how much they want attention? You're already clear of their attitude and you still waste your time even thinking about it? From what I see, if you mattered, he would have agreed to what you say at the very first time. So I don't get why you go saying "you know who I'm talking about". You're just wasting your time. And I as your friend hate seeing you this way, but will you listen?
I'm not backstabbing you or gossiping, I just have no choice but to say it here, on the worldwide web, because you wouldn't give a positive reaction to what I have or am about to say. I know you well enough to know how you'd react to such situations.
You may not see it my way. You may not agree with what I say. You may think I'm just being selfish or bitchy or bossy or whatever. Whatever you want to say is entirely your choice. But what I wish you'd understand is I wish you wouldn't pick anyone else over me. I spend more time with others because you were too absorbed in your own thoughts and thoughts you share with another group of friends. I'm honestly just a pole when I listen to your inside jokes with others that you don't want to explain because it's too long. It's honestly alright with me, because I know and understand that I'm not your ENTIRE world.
I completely understand that there are things you can't say to me. It's someone else's secret, or it's a secret you share with someone else. I don't want to hear the story behind it. But just so you know, I tell you every secret there is that I know of just because you hold a special place in my life. It's really alright if you don't look at it the same way I do. That's just the way you are.
I honestly don't even get what I'm trying to say. I'm not desperate for your attention or anything like that. I just wished you cared as my friend. If you say what you're doing now is already proof that you care, then I just don't know what to say, honestly. I'm not saying things behind your back. I just wish you were a little more observant.
This is what I think. So don't bad mouth me for my way of thinking.
But then again, you'd never see this.
Yours truly.